2013

3 years since posting here. Time continues on. I took this semester off from taking some college courses. I stopped for a break and I've reached a point where I have to commit to a certain degree from here on. I'm currently reading Leaves of Grass, and some of it is pretty good.

I'm Back

I forgot my password, so I couldnt post the last time I tried. This thing is like a lot of things in my life, I start but dont stay consistent with it. The only things I'm consistent with is things I have to be. ( eating, sleeping, & working). I would like this to be somewhat of a diary, because now that Facebook is the hot thing. There's no chance of this being looked at. A lot has changed since the the last post. I've left the church, its been rough at times and I'm still dealing with it, I think that where I'm from, I always will. But I still consider Grange Hall my church if I ever would go back. So I'll still use this site, and the name still has revelance 'cause there's no doubt I'm still travellin on. Another thing I'm consistent in because I have no choice!

Saturday

Nothing going on, wishing I was in Florida

Ullin Revival

Our band played at Ullin methodist church last night. It was good. Probobly my favorite thing to do. God has blessed me so much to be able to play for Him. These are definitely good days. I was thinking about how years from now my hope is that our band will still be going on (hopefully my relatives)

Long Time Gone

Its been a while, my grandpa passed away in Mar 06. In Dec 06 I was diagnosed w/ a tumor in the base of my skull. Surgery in Jan 07, radiation in Feb 07. So far everything is going great. Life feels different now and for the better. I hope to keep growing closer to Lord. I also hope to keep posting more. I'm also doing one with our church.

Long Time Gone

Many things have happened since last entry. My Grandpa passed on not long after the last post.
Also I found out I had a tumor in the base of my skull in Dec 06, surgery Jan 07, radiation Feb 07, and so far to this point things are going great. Life feels different now, like a pre tumor and post tumor life. I'm happy I can still praise God after my deal. It has been a gift. Ihope to keep posting more. I dont believe anyone reads it (I dont tell anyone about it). Its like a semi-private journal. I'm also starting one on my church. It has grown in leaps and bounds as of late.

Checking In

I haven't been able to post lately because I'm busier at work right now (thats the only place I use the internet) and my grandpa is not doing to well. They put him in the nursing home a couple of days ago. The first 10-15 minutes are rough on me while I visit. I cant help but question why people have to suffer in these ways, I asked the same when my son was being medivaced up to St Louis a few years ago. It really makes you see what faith means, I take it for granted. I'm also ashamed that now that he's been sick, I've visited him everyday, but all this time he was at home and probobly would have appreciated my company, I didnt go.
I'm reading the Boenhoffer book now as a devotional, it has small,but numerous chapters which makes it nice to plod through. I picked up Walden, so far the beginning is kinda dry, but I hope to get through it. I've always wanted to read it, not sure why, but I'm going to get it done. Hopefully my posts will be a little more frequent.

Blessed Are The Meek

I teach the teens in my church in Sunday School and we started this quarter with Matthew. It started right off the bat with The Beatitudes. They are some the most powerful words to me in the Bible. I've read books that were written about them specifically, but I still find myself reading the verses again and try to understand them. I really think my hang up is that I know what they mean, I just don't want to heed them. On the verse Blessed are the meek, I like the way my study guide decribed meekness. I asked my class what they thought of when they heard meek and the first response was "weakness". That was my first thought when I read it. But as I've grown in my walk I've realized that it actually means the opposite. The guide described it as being like a horse when it is bridled. Enormously powerful, but controlled. I thought of when Jesus was in the garden and He asked the priests whom did they seek, when He said "I am He" and they drew back and fell to the ground, I see that as a proof of meekness.
I love how Jesus started the Sermon on the Mount with these words, I wonder what the people thought when he said them. If it comforted them or if it offended them, they certainly make me uncomfortable. But I'm finding that when I find scripture "uncomfortable", I dig deeper into that part because I know its hitting something that needs attended to. I love the Word and hope to never lose the desire to keep it a part of my daily living.